Writers' block-ish

Writing SGA is not easy for me right now. Tonight I wrote a plotless team snippet for the Gen Battle as a warm-up exercise, and then struggled with my sticksandsnark fic for a while. I got quite a bit written (actually, it may be finished, unless I decide to go ahead and try to write a sex scene; I'm not sure whether its usefulness to the story would be offset by my general suckiness at writing non-creepy sex).

But ... I have to push for every paragraph. I'm not sure how hard to push, either; I miss the days when I had a head full of fanfic ideas, but I really do want to devote a lot of attention to my original writing this year, and it's easier if my original fic doesn't have to duke it out with fanfic for limited brainspace. *ponders* I think the only reason why I'm still in SGA fandom at all right now is because of the social side of the fandom; usually, when I feel the way about a show that I do about SGA these days, I'm no longer interested in writing or seeking out fic. But ... over the last three(!) years, it's become such a habit to seek out SGA fic whenever I'm online -- and every time I check my f'list, there are fresh things to read. It's hard to just stop, and I think that the constant presence of fic and meta is very gently boomeranging me back into the fandom. I'm feeling a lot warmer towards the show and characters, and more inclined to read fic for them without wanting them all to drop dead, than I was a month ago. I'm not reviewing very much because, due to my general gloomy mood regarding the show, it's really rare for me to like a story without major caveats right now, and therefore it's hard to come up with things to say that aren't the sort of WTF? reviews that always really puzzle me when other people leave them ("I liked w, but hated x, y, z" type reviews -- nobody needs that). But my feelings on the show are quite a bit warmer now than they were at the turn of the year, even though it's still a bit of a slog when it comes to writing for it.

Writers' block-ish

Writing SGA is not easy for me right now. Tonight I wrote a plotless team snippet for the Gen Battle as a warm-up exercise, and then struggled with my sticksandsnark fic for a while. I got quite a bit written (actually, it may be finished, unless I decide to go ahead and try to write a sex scene; I'm not sure whether its usefulness to the story would be offset by my general suckiness at writing non-creepy sex).

But ... I have to push for every paragraph. I'm not sure how hard to push, either; I miss the days when I had a head full of fanfic ideas, but I really do want to devote a lot of attention to my original writing this year, and it's easier if my original fic doesn't have to duke it out with fanfic for limited brainspace. *ponders* I think the only reason why I'm still in SGA fandom at all right now is because of the social side of the fandom; usually, when I feel the way about a show that I do about SGA these days, I'm no longer interested in writing or seeking out fic. But ... over the last three(!) years, it's become such a habit to seek out SGA fic whenever I'm online -- and every time I check my f'list, there are fresh things to read. It's hard to just stop, and I think that the constant presence of fic and meta is very gently boomeranging me back into the fandom. I'm feeling a lot warmer towards the show and characters, and more inclined to read fic for them without wanting them all to drop dead, than I was a month ago. I'm not reviewing very much because, due to my general gloomy mood regarding the show, it's really rare for me to like a story without major caveats right now, and therefore it's hard to come up with things to say that aren't the sort of WTF? reviews that always really puzzle me when other people leave them ("I liked w, but hated x, y, z" type reviews -- nobody needs that). But my feelings on the show are quite a bit warmer now than they were at the turn of the year, even though it's still a bit of a slog when it comes to writing for it.