Year-end fannish reflections

I finished my seventh fandom_stocking fic this morning! I'm really getting into it this year; there are a bunch of White Collar fandom people with stockings up, and while I'm not going to write something for everyone, I'm at least trying to write something for everyone I know. (I don't think I'm going to make it, but I'm taking a stab at it ...) And I'm really having a lot of fun. I'll crosspost them here after the stocking reveals.

Also, fandom_stocking has a volunteer post where you can sign up to fill stockings that no one has filled yet!

The past few years, I've done end-of-year fanfic review posts, but it's starting to feel kind of redundant to list all my fic, since I'm posting everything to my AO3 account now. It made more sense when I had fic spread around in a dozen places, but not so much when it's all in a tidy, searchable list already. And AO3 has a lovely stats feature, which tells me that I posted 193,125 words of fanfic in 2012, compared to 256,553 in 2011 and 123,782 in 2010. (I knew that 2011 was a big fic year for me - it was the year I discovered White Collar, and I wrote a lot. I didn't realize I'd written that much this year, though.)

I guess you all know that the past few months in fandom haven't been good ones for me. But I really do believe that this is mostly down to me, and the way that I've been handling my own fandom experience. I also want to apologize most sincerely to those of you that I've quarreled with, treated badly, and said hurtful things to. I'm going to try to be a better (fannish) person in 2013 -- less quarrelsome and touchy, less inclined to allow myself to react with offense and hurt to innocuous comments.

( A little more maundering about me and fandom; contains talk about depression, so please avoid if you need to for your own mental health )