More Supernatural fanning (and I really need an icon for it)

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Curse you, xparrot and derry667! Dean Winchester has stolen my BRAIN!

You know, I didn't even really LIKE Dean in the first couple of episodes. And then, well ... there was a string of episodes culminating in "Faith", and by the point in "Nightmares" when he tells Sam that he won't let anything hurt him, I was just a fannish goo-puddle on the couch.

The eyelashes don't help. I think he gives Rodney McKay a run for the money in the "awesome eyelashes" department. Well, just his eyes in general, really ...

If I were to have a "type" (and being that I'm married, I probably shouldn't) Dean Winchester would not be that "type". I know the kinds of guys that appeal to me, on TV as in real life -- the sarcastic geeks. I'm not drawn to the macho gunslingers. At all. Usually.

Obviously it's a whole different story with sarcastic macho gunslingers with a soft marshmallow center that go all protective for their little brother.

I realize that I'm only up to about episode 15 or so at this point, so I'm still getting a handle on the characters and who they are. What made me fall so hard for Dean, I think, is the glimpses that we get of the side of him that is both incredibly self-sacrificing and someewhat self-hating. As my husband pointed out after we watched "Faith", in the reaper scene at the end, "he didn't try to run away." And I really do think that he would have just stood there and let the reaper take his life, knowing that in doing so the girl's life would be saved, and also feeling that he didn't deserve to live at another's expense.

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[xparrot.livejournal.com]

Well, my type, as my brother determined some time ago, is total bad-asses, so Dean wasn't a total surprise...but he is so much more than he seems at first. And yes, self-sacrifice and self-hatred are Dean's middle names. Along with 'over-protective' - ahh the end of Nightmare is just... *siiiigh*

...and oh, my, indeed, he is awful pretty. He's got luminescent orbs! It's quite distracting... ^_^

[derry667.livejournal.com]

And another one bites the dust! LOL!

Ah, if you're a puddle of goo at "While I'm around nothing bad's gonna happen to you" (and typically, immediately after that he makes Sam stalk off in disbelief with the suggestion they take his psychic powers to Vegas! Hee!). Well, I say again, Something Wicked will just kill you! And you are almost there... I'm almost anticipating the fannish goo explosion. LOL!

Yeah, Dean really does seem to believe that other people deserve to live more than he does. Even the death of a complete stranger for his sake tears at him. And y'know, even beyond devotedly protecting him just as his kid brother, I think Dean really believes that Sam is more valuable to the world as a person than Dean himself. Cockiness covering up low self-esteem isn't exactly a new idea, but Dean Winchester has it down to an artform - such that it really does take you a while to realise that that is what's going on with him.

And y'know, when you reminded me that you didn't like John Sheppard to start with, I began to wonder if there might be some parallels for you with Dean. They have quite a few traits in common IMHO.

As for "types", I tend to go for geeks and smartarses in equal measure (which is why Rodney hits me with a double whammy). And although he's definitely got the latter quality in spades, I think Dean's about the most ungeeky fan-crush I've ever had. Mind you, I do cling to the fact that he once built an EMF detector out of a Walkman (and the dorky grin as he announced it to Sam). How geeky is that? And yeah, even if not very geeky, Dean definitely has dork value!

Ah, there's just something about Dean Winchester. Something intangible. Not that he doesn't have awesome lashes surrounding amazing eyes of a debated green-grey-hazel colour. And I've never really gone nuts about freckles before, but... damn!