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And on a more personal note ...
I have a personal LJ elsewhere, but I'm finding myself more and more tempted to move my personal blogging over here.
The main reason is because I know that my personal LJ is read by a number of people that I really *don't* want privy to my innermost thoughts, such as my in-laws and certain old friends and ... you know what I mean, I guess.
The other reason is that I'm just starting to find myself more *comfortable* over here. See, most people in my real-life circle of friends and family don't have a clue about my fannish existence. I started actively hiding it years ago because I had a couple of real-life friends who were very, very negative about the whole idea of fanfic and fannishness in general. I didn't want to have to defend myself constantly and I wanted to keep them as friends, and at that time I was active in various Internet circles in which they played a major part, so I pretty much had to go "underground" in order to avoid notice. Over time it became an ingrained habit. At this point, I think the only person I know in real life who has any idea of the depth of my fannishness is my sister, who also reads and writes fanfic (although not nearly as much as I do) and, at the very least, understands. I can't even begin to imagine explaining it to my husband or my pro-writer friends or any of the other people who frequent my other journal.
This was all fine for a while, because I wasn't really active in any particular fandoms. I read fic, but didn't really write it or participate in discussions. This all changed when I got into SGA last spring. And, for better or worse, it's becoming increasingly important in my life -- I mean, not the show itself, but the social circle associated with it. This is really the most involved that I've been in online activities since I was at the height of my small-press-comics period in '01 and '02. And in the past, I've never really made friends in fandom ... at least not many. I think the only person I'm still in touch with from my earlier forays into fandom is![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
xparrot -- we just "clicked", I guess. But this time around, I'm getting a lot deeper into the discussions and getting to know a lot more people personally. The more intimate nature of LJ makes it easier, I guess; in the past it was mainly via message boards, discussion groups and occasionally private email. It was a lot more open and impersonal. I think LJ encourages the formation of small social groups rather than the large and less personal ones that were the case over the last ten years or so of Internet fandom. Actually, in a way it's circled back around to the way it was in the really early days, when the discussion groups were a lot more private and it was just a bunch of people who knew each other on a mailing list chatting about the show ...
Anyway -- I digress. I would like to integrate my fannish existence with my real-life existence a little more than is true at the present, but I'm not really sure how to go about it, because I'm well aware that there are people I know in RL who would look down on me if they knew about this. Increasingly, though, the people that I want to spend more time around are the people that I know through fandom, because they know both sides of me -- the fan side, and the pro-writer side.
*grin* Thanks for listening. I know you guys don't get a whole lot of personal stuff from this LJ (and that's on purpose), but I felt like rambling about this, and I certainly can't do it at my other LJ -- so this one seemed to be the right place.
The main reason is because I know that my personal LJ is read by a number of people that I really *don't* want privy to my innermost thoughts, such as my in-laws and certain old friends and ... you know what I mean, I guess.
The other reason is that I'm just starting to find myself more *comfortable* over here. See, most people in my real-life circle of friends and family don't have a clue about my fannish existence. I started actively hiding it years ago because I had a couple of real-life friends who were very, very negative about the whole idea of fanfic and fannishness in general. I didn't want to have to defend myself constantly and I wanted to keep them as friends, and at that time I was active in various Internet circles in which they played a major part, so I pretty much had to go "underground" in order to avoid notice. Over time it became an ingrained habit. At this point, I think the only person I know in real life who has any idea of the depth of my fannishness is my sister, who also reads and writes fanfic (although not nearly as much as I do) and, at the very least, understands. I can't even begin to imagine explaining it to my husband or my pro-writer friends or any of the other people who frequent my other journal.
This was all fine for a while, because I wasn't really active in any particular fandoms. I read fic, but didn't really write it or participate in discussions. This all changed when I got into SGA last spring. And, for better or worse, it's becoming increasingly important in my life -- I mean, not the show itself, but the social circle associated with it. This is really the most involved that I've been in online activities since I was at the height of my small-press-comics period in '01 and '02. And in the past, I've never really made friends in fandom ... at least not many. I think the only person I'm still in touch with from my earlier forays into fandom is
xparrot -- we just "clicked", I guess. But this time around, I'm getting a lot deeper into the discussions and getting to know a lot more people personally. The more intimate nature of LJ makes it easier, I guess; in the past it was mainly via message boards, discussion groups and occasionally private email. It was a lot more open and impersonal. I think LJ encourages the formation of small social groups rather than the large and less personal ones that were the case over the last ten years or so of Internet fandom. Actually, in a way it's circled back around to the way it was in the really early days, when the discussion groups were a lot more private and it was just a bunch of people who knew each other on a mailing list chatting about the show ...Anyway -- I digress. I would like to integrate my fannish existence with my real-life existence a little more than is true at the present, but I'm not really sure how to go about it, because I'm well aware that there are people I know in RL who would look down on me if they knew about this. Increasingly, though, the people that I want to spend more time around are the people that I know through fandom, because they know both sides of me -- the fan side, and the pro-writer side.
*grin* Thanks for listening. I know you guys don't get a whole lot of personal stuff from this LJ (and that's on purpose), but I felt like rambling about this, and I certainly can't do it at my other LJ -- so this one seemed to be the right place.